"the only way to find true happiness is to risk being completely cut open."

i risked having those wounds for you. i took the chance of being cut open and completely broken on you. and my willingness to risk it all on you grows stronger and stronger and weaker and weaker at the same time.

 and the fulfillment, yes, i have felt it, i have felt your happiness and our wise friend Chuck Palahnuik has proven his point..i've risked myself to find that feeling but now it's coming and it's going and i'm wondering if next time it goes it'll be gone for good. 

if only Palahnuik would reveal the secret of the next step for those taking his advice, if only he'd whisper in my ear and tell me true happiness is allowed to be a wavering feeling..because i'm not sure this is what true happiness feels like, and now i'm wondering if you were worth the risk.

photos from here.